Thump. Thump. Breath. Thump. Thump. Breath.
That was how the rest of my afternoon was spent, listening to my breathing and my heartbeat while waiting on Erin. I had noticed that when ever Erin crossed my mind, my heart sped up.

'Dammit. Where is he?" I grumbled to myself, looking out my window into the back yard where he would have been walking if he was coming to get me. Erin and I would usually sneak off together in the middle of the night because our town didn't really accept the fact that we were both boys and we were in love with each other.

The memories were fresh and clear in my head, when I had first told Erin how much I loved him. It was last year and Erin was a Peer Helper in one of my classes. I wasn't the best at making good grade and usually my teacher sent be back with Erin to make me learn more. Those trips became the highlights of my life, going back to Erin and seeing those crystal blue eyes laugh and sparkle as he tried to teach me though I failed anyway just to be with him.

He at first didn't notice the sudden attachment I had for him, he didn't know my heart fluttered when he smiled and sped off at a million miles per hour as he laughed, making me fall deeper and and deeper in love with him. It took a lot of guts for me to finally go up to him and say how much I truly loved him, how much I wanted to be with him. I, at first, didn't want to tell him for fact that he might hate me and never look at me again. Though my mind was changed when his classmates started to pick and stab at the few homosexuals in their school and he told them to shut the fuck up and I saw that dreaded hurt look on his face.

I had found him leaning on a wall, all by himself just standing there looking perfect.  I had hunted all over the school for him and now I had found him. My heart was welling up, beating fast and faster as I walked to him.

"Excuse me? Erin?" I asked coughing a bit to get his attention.

"Dammit Robin. Why do people have to be so cruel? Why can't they just accept us for who we are..." He growled looking up at me, his blue eyes were crossed with both anger and sadness, it made my heart reach out to him wanting to ease his pain.

"We are? What do you mean?" I asked as innocently as I could scramble for a fifteen year old.

"I've seen the way you look at me Robin, there is no way to hide the fact that you're in love with me. " He said sliding his black backpack off his shoulders and into the dirty ground below him.

"L-love?" I stumbled over the word, I felt like a fool. I wanted to just run away and never let him see my face again or to know my shame.

"Yes, love Robin." He whispered walking closer to me, closer and closer until his face was right but next to mine but he didn't stop there until our lips brushed making my heart skip a beat it was going so fast.

Our first kiss was so beautiful, I never wanted it to end. His lips were soft and warm like a pillow that had just come out of the dyer. They were sweet too, like he had been eating something surgery earlier. His lips were kind and soft, making me  thirst for more when he pulled away.

"No." I whispered back quietly, pulling his face back towards mine kissing him softly again wanting so much of him. He kissed me again and again before finally moving my hands down to my side and pulling away, both of us panting for breath.

"I'm sorry." He whispered standing himself up back and walking to his backpack. "I didn't mean to force you Robin. I'm sorry."

"Force? No, Erin I wanted it." I said before shutting my mouth up quickly and turning my face downwards, not wanting to look at anyone.

"You... wanted it?" He drawled, turning back around and looking at me, his beautiful face was filled with surprise.

"Yes." I breathed.

"Why?"

"I love you."

Erin froze before dropping his stuff again and walking to me. Catching me in his arms and stealing another kiss from my mouth and hiding his face into my shoulder . "You love me Robin? Is that what you really mean?" He whispered.

"Yes. I mean it." I whispered back.

I felt him smile and when he looked up to look at me square in the face, his grin had reached his ears.

"Wow, the most beautiful boy in the school is in love with me." He said pushing away dirty blonde hair.

"Huh?" I questioned before he hugged me tighter.

"Nothing. Nothing. C'mon, you've got to get to class. I'll drive you home okay?" He said, clearly excited that I had claimed love for him and now couldn't keep his lips or hands off of me.

That was nearly a year ago. Me and Erin have been a good steady couple, going out more often and just being two boys in love. We got plenty of stares and looks but I didn't care. As long as I was with Erin, I didn't give a care what other people thought. They could have thought we were perfect or we were an abomination but I didn't care and neither did Erin.

"Robin!" Someone shouted outside my window making me jump nearly half way to to the moon, pulling me from my memories of my dear love. I jumped out of my chair and pounded to the window to see who it was, and only expecting to see one face. My expectations were met when I saw Erin's beautiful body standing outside in the cold air laughing at me. "Get out here you idiot." He called. I nodded and opened my window more and jumped out into the the soft grasses below my window and into his arms.

"I was beginning to think that you weren't coming. Why didn't you call me?" I said looking up at him, frowning in the cutest way I could muster.

"Hey now, my mother started to nag me about not doing what I'm supposed to do and hanging out with that little boy who I kiss to much for just being frie-"

"Wait, I thought you told her we were going out?"

"I did, but she didn't accept it yet. Don't worry babe," He kissed my nose softly, "I still love you even if we are just friends."

"Don't say that. It sounds like we are breaking up..." I whispered into his chest kissing the navy blue shirt he had on.

"Alright." He whispered chuckling at my sudden girl side. Even though I played baseball and I'm so willing to get down and dirty, I looked too much like a girl with how my face and body shape is. It wouldn't be a surprise if I was born a girl but my parents changed me into a boy. "Now lets go swimming."

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Before we got into the water we sat in the truck looking out at the lake. The water was so still like a thin sheet of glass with the moon plastered on like one of those huge stained glass windows in churches or something.

"Beautiful..." I whispered reaching over to take Erin's hand. He jump a bit from the sudden movement but when I touched his warm hand, he melted like butter in my hands.

"Just like you..." He whispered back, reaching to me and kissing my head softly, running his other hand over my neck and pulling me closer, snuggling down into my neck.

"Oh stop it." I giggled though I was glad I was beautiful in his eyes. I had never thought of myself as beautiful because of my girlish looks but Erin thought I was a diamond in the midst of mountains of coal.

He smiled at me before letting me go and opening the door of his truck and sliding out with me following. The night was cold but the water would be warm we both knew that. The walk to the edge of the lake only lasted a few moments and then we both peeled off our shirts and pants before running into the water. Neither of us were ashamed of being in our underwear because we were too in love to see this shameful appearance, plus we had already seen each other naked.

We both slid into the water moving around each other, never out each other's grasp. His ghostly fingers traveling up and down my arms as Erin floated around me.

"Mmm...Robin...." He whispered into my ear trailing his fingers down my torso, kissing at my neck and shoulders making me shiver despite the warm water. "I know I've said this to much but it's so true. Your so beautiful... I'm so glad your mine."

"Oh really?" I asked, turning around and looking at his soft face even though I saw two emotions mixed up in his eyes, one growing more powerful then the other. I felt his fingers moving lower to my legs, his lips touching me where ever they willed. I felt powerless to stop him, though the feeling was magic and I didn't want him to stop.

"Yes really." He replied finally removing his fingers from my sides and wrapping them around my waist, pulling me closer for more human contact. His powerful legs kicked under us keeping up both upright. His lips touched my neck, making me shiver and wrapping me more up into his arms. "Cold?" He asked, letting our skin touch. I nodded my head and leaned back against him as he turned us up onto our backs and float away into the dark black waters.

The swimming didn't take much time before we both crawled out and fell on the beach, just laying there in each others arm. My face curled up into his chest with his long tan arms pulling me closer.

"I love you Robin." He whispered into my hair.

"I love you too Erin..." I whispered back wanting nothing more then being here in his arms. "Hey Erin?" I asked after a few moments had gone by.

"Hmm?"

"Will you come and practice with me tomorrow out in the field?" I asked.

"I don't know. I'll have to check with Olivia and such to see if I'm free. I hope I am though." He said before whispering for me to shut up and at least pretend I was enjoying being in his arms.

"Okay." I said reaching over and kissing his chestbone before shutting my eyes and dozing off to imagining Erin sweating.